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Just A Puppet On A String

Cut Me Not The Strings

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Created on 2006-01-28 00:00:04 (#9373165), last updated 2009-11-20

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Name:	mizuki_hana2
Birthdate:	1975-10-07

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wanda3_33@yahoo.com

Bio

MY ENTIRE PROFILE HAS BEEN DESIGNED BY mitsuki_chi

***A Warning About My Journal: I don't believe in seperating my friends out. I use cuts and advisories in my posts to warn people if content is going to change to a touchy subject. I feel your friends deserve to know that you have nothing to hide. I don't use real names, because I have been burned before. Everyone has a nickname and the most important are listed below and found HERE.

ABOUT ME
I have a unique and somewhat complicated life. Our family contains three separate families of there own. First is the original family containing my ex husband Sage, my oldest Son C4 eight at the time, and myself. To that equation we add Mitsuki. She is my girlfriend, "sister", best friend, and one time lover. Sage, C4 and she live together. Yes I am ok with this. Mitsuki and I maintain a platonic relationship now that is still going strong. We are very much in love, but not foolish enough to ruin the family dynamic with our selfishness.

When Sage and I broke up in 2005 I rebounded with both a new
girlfriend and boyfriend. I should have known better that I couldn't replace Mitsuki with anyone else, but I foolishly tried and got my heart destroyed for it by a 19 yr old bitch I call the Sorceress. I call her that, because I swear I was under a spell. She also convinced the guy I was with that I was cheating on him and that I was pregnant with my ex's baby. Meanwhile I have been trying to get pregnant with him for the last nine years and I sleep with this guy once and boom! I guess it wasn't me all the long. I wish I could say I kicked both of them to the curb and that's the end but it's not. We'll get back to that later.

After they left me, I was very suicidal and lonely. I stopped eating and taking meds. I even forgot I was pregnant and didn't take care of myself. I didn't do anything foolish like drink or do drugs though. Around the third month I was ready to end it all, so I went for one last fling to a convention at my local college. I am so glad I went, because that's where I met my soul mate Gaerfindel. It was love at first sight and I didn't even believe in that anymore. I was so hurt and he picked me up and mended my heart. He was my White Knight. Unfortunately there is always a dragon around a white knight. Gaerfie has epilepsy. He has had it since he was two. His biggest fear is that he will lose his memory and become a vegetable. I told him I didn't care and I would stand by him. I told him I was pregnant and he said he didn't care. That was four years ago and we are still going strong. He helped me bring my beautiful baby boy into this world the Gnome, and now an equally beautiful baby girl Katydid.

UPDATE Recently Gaerfie found out what kind of epilepsy he has after 30 years of waiting, Bi-Lateral Frontal seizures. Unfortunately in order to permanently cure it he needs a frontal lobotomy(see upper paragraph for worst fear) and that ain't happening. For now we have him on a new cocktail of meds and we'll see what happens from there.

Remember the jerk that left me two paragraphs ago? Well now he's back. He called me when I was five month pregnant to apologize. I asked him where the Sorceress was and he said she dumped him for his brother. I was laughing about that one. He asked for another chance and I said no it was over and that he hurt me very much. He was abusive and let her be equally if not more abusive to me. I also said that until he shapes up he can't see the product of his donation. Can you tell I was mad? Now it's almost three years later and Poppy(he wasn't getting Daddy as far as I was concerned)has stepped up to the plate. He pays his child support on time and takes the Gnome every other weekend. He shows respect to Gaerfie and I. He has a nice girlfriend who I get along well with. She has changed him for the better and she has a six yr old, so he gets practice. I guess some men can learn how to be parents.

My life contains BDSM. I have a submissive personality by nature I have had many Masters and Mistresses and not all were great. I had some cruel ones who just wanted to hurt me physically and mentally. If anyone tells you that the D/s life is all about just whipping the crap out of someone they are dead wrong and have no idea what they are talking about. It's about allowing someone to dominate you because you want them too. It may sound strange, but it is actually the sub in the relationship who has the power, because she can say no anytime she wants. That's the true meaning of being submissive.

I have a new Mistress now whom i trust very much. She is also part of my relationship with Gaerfie. I go with her to Paddles NYC and do demos and perform with her. She treats me very well and understands that I don't want the same in the bedroom. An understanding person makes a true Dominate that and Submissive would be happy to have.

I am a Wiccan, though I really don't harmonize with nature. Don't get me wrong I love Winter and Autumn, but not Spring and Summer. The bugs and the heat turn me off. I was born in the Fall so I guess it makes sense. I am very week magickly speaking in the Spring and Summer too. I ama Libra and a Rabbit which is a match made in Heaven or Hell your choice. I am a proud Kitchen Witch! Everything I cook has a magickal touch. Even the most mundane items such as my "Sloppy Joanne"(Mac and Cheese and Sloppy Joe mixed together), which is my most popular dish, has a special taste to it. I cherish my gift from the Goddess. My Goddess of choice is Aphrodite. My Soul mate

gaerfindel believes in Thor, God of Thunder. It is a bit scary when he gets angry, because he truly channels the God it seems, Also the length of his beard matters.

So that's my story(and I'm sticking to it). I told you it was a wild ride. I am not yet legally divorced from Sage, but Gaerfie and Mitsuki don't mind. When we can afford to we will and then we will both marry our fiances. Mitsuki and I joke that it should be a double wedding ha ha. I do want another child, but I am not ready yet. Meanwhile below are the pictures of the people who mean the most in my life. Thanks for reading and understanding.

And now let the Blinkies begin!

BLINKIES!